Thursday, February 25, 2016

Compared and Found Enough

by Danetta Kellar

Growing up, I loved Little House on the Prairie. I raced home from school each day to watch it and dream about life on the Prairie surrounded by love and wisdom, hard work and simplicity. I was Laura, and my daily braids testified to my adoration. Freckles and crooked teeth completed the picture. I might have been laughed at and bullied on the school bus, but I was Laura Ingalls on the inside, and no one could take my confidence away.

Now I am all grown up with a freckle-faced daughter of my own. 

Last year we read the Little House books together and almost made it through the whole set.This Christmas morning, a gorgeous, log cabin-shaped box of the entire TV series on DVD was waiting under the tree, much to our delight. Needless to say, we are having a very Laura year. 

But now it is my little girl who is identifying with Laura. It is my young dreamer who is asking to wear her hair braided and to please go without shoes. Her laughter is like joy bells as she exclaims, “Laura has my brain!"

I, on the other hand, am seeing Ma for the first time. No doubt I saw her on all those childhood TV afternoons so long ago, but she was just a calm fixture, serving in the background of Laura's exciting adventures. Certainly not someone with whom to identify. Long for, perhaps, but not understand.

Little House on the Prairie has outed me this time around. 

I have grown up and moved forward into the season of life I once dreamed about. I am now a mother, a wife, a member of my community.  And I am identifying not with Laura now, but with her mother.

Thursday, February 11, 2016

Lookin' Like a Fool: Speaking Before Thinking

by Danetta Kellar

My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires. -James 1:19

The one who has knowledge uses words with restraint, and whoever has understanding is even-tempered. Even fools are thought wise if they keep silent, and discerning if they hold their tongues. -Proverbs 17:27-28

We had just returned to the United States after spending the genesis of our parenting years in Africa. Away from cable TV. Away from pop music. Away from hand-held gaming devices. We were tiptoeing through our new home culture like soldiers in a mine field.

My five-year-old son came home from school one day, singing and shaking his bootie to the words, “Pants on the ground, pants on the ground...” you know the rest. 

Blood pressure rising, I shouted, “Do. Not. Sing. That. Song. That man has just done a very naughty thing and that is why his pants are on the ground and he looks like a fool!”

The boys were staring at me like I had grown a sparkling unicorn horn.

Something inside me was warning me, like a quiet, insistent blinky light on the car dashboard. Maybe you are over-reacting. You’ve never heard this song before right now.

Thursday, February 4, 2016

A Deep, Quiet Assurance: Knowing God’s Leading

by Danetta Kellar

Behind every life-changing, heart-gripping event, there is a story beneath the story. 

It is sometimes never told, at least to the crowds.

Rachel Saint, missionary to the jungle peoples of Ecuador, gave us a great gift when she shared the story beneath the story of the martyrdom of her brother Nate Saint along with four other missionaries on January 8, 1956. We learn from her the events that captured the world’s attention and inspired countless missionaries since really began in the place of prayer, in the private, quiet place of a young, single woman seeking the Lord’s leading for her life.